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I just had the strangest sex this morning. It was so different than "the usual"... everything had like five times more meaning... more passion... it was like all the tension exploded in one act. And I feel so much better!

I had a strange dream this morning... two to be exact:

1. my girlfriend passed away and i woke up in shock and in tears
2. my girlfriend vanished from my life and I went crazy looking for her

Is this some kind of premonition?

I've completely lost interest in porn. It's been ... two weeks (!!!) since I last jacked off... and I thought it would be a good way to relax this morning. But... can you believe it... as I cycled through various clips on my HD... I felt they were all disugsting. It seems that I stopped watching porn and eating like a pig ever since I fell in love with her. Something for psychologists to reflect on maybe?

In contrast, my interest in music has quadrupled. Music seem to move me in new ways that I cannot even begin to describe. But that's no big surprise, I suppose.

Indeed, my interest in this girl seems to be purely romantic. Whenever I think about her, most of the situations that come up are "date-like" - chilling in the car, or going skating together, that sort of thing. Not that there isn't any sexual attraction, yesterday I "accidentally" caught a glimpse of her cleavage, and let's just saw she's fairly well endowed for a Japanese girl. But by and large, she's the kind of girl I'd like to know everything about. I've never been interested in the whole 'fuck'em and dump'em' thing anyhow. I can't even begin to understand how that can actually feel satsifying.